Discrepancy

Before you offer friendship - wait
I feel that I must warn you
that I don't reciprocate
for then I will not mourn you
or be handicapped by hate
when you kindly perforate
my scar worn back

I know it sounds inhuman but
it's how I've learned to function
by keeping all the portals shut
from those that seek conjunction
though lately in my churning gut
I'm feeling that I don't know what
I sorely lack.